I’ve had the immense pleasure of knowing my friend Taylor for thirteen years. She is one of only two friends I’ve kept from my pre-college years. (The other friend is her twin, Jennie. Full disclosure there.) Moving makes friendships difficult, but it’s never been a question for us. Not even a stint in Hungary could keep up apart! (That was an awful year.)
Before I started taking writing classes, and posting ridiculous words here, Taylor was the only person I would share anything with. She was the only person who didn’t think it was crazy to spend hours talking about characterization. And she’s the only person I’ve ever felt comfortable talking to about, like, boys. I mean, let’s be honest. You can’t talk about sex things with your blabber-mouth sisters unless you want to be put in a convent. …I’m so uncomfortable right now. I love you, blog friends, but you are not Taylor and therefore we are done talking about reproductive acts.
I love Taylor a lot. She’s funny, passionate, and ebullient. She has the unique tragedy/gift of living viscerally. That’s one of my favorite things about her. I guard my emotions as if acknowledging them will invalidate them. Taylor feels deeply and truly and unabashedly. Unfortunately, those feelings are sad feelings right now. She’s wearing heavy boots.
And maybe some of you have heavy boots, too. Maybe you need to listen to some sad songs to feel better again. The verses are from Richard Hugo’s “Degrees of Gray in Philipsburg”, a poem I like very much. I like it because a) the last good kiss I had was years ago, b) this is a break-up mix and, c) Taylor is a slender girl with red hair that lights the wall. I’m not above literal interpretations.
“Say your life broke down. The last good kiss//you had was years ago. … Isn’t this your life? That ancient kiss//still burning out your eyes? … and the girl who serves your food//is slender and her red hair lights the wall.”
Perfect Disguise / Modest Mouse
Mr. Moon / Eisley
When You Were Mine / John Heart Jackie
Hospital Song / Ben Folds Five
Hey Ya / Obadiah Parker
Close to Me [Closet Remix] / The Cure
A Comet Appears / The Shins
Shrinking Violet / Bishop Allen
Someday You Will Be Loved / Death Cab for Cutie
Are We All Forgotten? / Paper Route
Penelope / Pinback
The General Specific / Band of Horses (Also, Julia Nunes version!)
Where the Good Ones Go / Danielle Ate the Sandwich
The Engine Driver / The Decemberists (My boots got much too heavy here.)
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight / The Postal Service (Even heavier!)
Keepsake / State Radio (CEMENT BLOCK BOOTS)
We Are Young / Fun
Blue Skies / Noah and the Whale
I’m sorry if these links stop working. I’m also sorry if listening to these makes you impossibly sad. Blue skies!